Several years ago I began a job search. I had a strong desire to mentor young women at church. Excitement and joy came over me when, I not only found an open position as a mentor, but I also received an invitation for an interview. I could hardly wait the week for the interview. The morning arrived. I was praying and talking with God. I had a strong sense to ask God to show me His will. I wanted to make sure I was walking through a door He opened. I specifically asked God to close the door to this interview if it was not His will for me. My interview was set for 12pm that day. I remember as if were yesterday. The phone rang at 10:05 a.m. It was the number from the church. I answered. They politely said they were not planning to move forward with the mentor job, and therefore, would keep my résumé on file if they decide to reopen the position.
Anger – and yet heartbroken, I hung up the phone. I could not believe it. The job I desired – a positive role model to young girls, was no longer an immediate possibility. My husband did not understand my anger. He said, you asked God to close the door for you, and He answered your prayer. My husband was right. The church had called a week earlier to set up the interview. How is it the day I asked God to close the door, they called that day? Did I not get it? He hears me. He cares for me. He answers when we pray to Him. Instead of going to the interview, waiting by the phone, hoping that I would be hired – God spared me.
I do not claim to have all the answers to God’s reasoning. But I will say, I look back, and that was the year I began to homeschool my children. I had no plans to homeschool, but God did. My son, who I still homeschool, needed me at home more than me being a mentor. As a homeschool parent I thank God every day. I did not have a great education growing up, but I have learned so much teaching my children. It’s as if God has given me a second chance to learn what I missed out on. I have never been resentful toward God for closing that door. I have been on a far greater adventure as a home educator.
Maybe you’re looking for a new job, or calling or simply your purpose with God. I do not believe God sends us through hoops, or scavenger hunts. I truly believe when we seek Him – He is there to meet us. We often attach our self-worth into whatever job we have. Speaking for myself, I now know my value comes from God. His plan is bigger than a job. Sure, we need to make a living, but that’s secondary to a greater purpose. Did you know the Apostle Paul was a tentmaker and a missionary? (Acts 18) Most people do not know this, but even Paul had to make a living. But his purpose was a servant for God.
God can and will lead you down the right path – His path. Ask Him today to lead you. Yes, those closed doors will at first hurt. But better to have God close a door, than spend unnecessary time heartbroken over decisions you’ve made without His guidance.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”